Why do we DULL OUR LIGHt?
I bought a new car 2 days ago! It felt so good to get something new, and luxurious!
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Since we moved from Canada to Florida almost 2 years ago, I have been driving a F-150 truck that my husband’s company graciously allowed me drive.
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We moved to the US and failed to realize that we would have zero credit established here! I hadn't given it any thought because we had gotten a mortgage for our Florida home; so if we could get that, why the heck wouldn’t we have credit?
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When we moved, I had taken back my leased Lexus to the dealership in Canada, and just assumed I could step into a new lease on a new car once we got the US. Wrong. Although both Canada and the US use the same credit reporting companies, the systems don't "speak" to each other. So I was in a situation where we had to reestablish our credit and start from scratch. I was extremely grateful to be afforded the opportunity to have a vehicle to use while we waited for our credit to build.
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Fast forward nearly 2 years.
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I started to long for a vehicle of my own choosing. I was surprised to find that I some mental blocks swirling around in my head that needed to be worked through. I wanted a new car so badly, but I also felt like that longing somehow made me selfish, ungrateful, and unappreciative for what I had.
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I decided it was time to allow myself the luxury of a new car. So my husband, Chad, and I did our research, then went and test drove several vehicles until we settled upon the Infiniti QX50. It was exciting for me to have gotten through my blocks and allow myself this.
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I went and picked up my new car yesterday.
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I got home and Chad asked me if I got a picture with the new car? I immediately said, "no, I have no intention of posting this on my social media." And then, my heart sank. Why did I feel like this wasn't something I could post or share? Well, here's exactly why.
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I don't want others’ judgement.
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That got me thinking; why do we hide our good news and somehow think we are protecting ourselves? It’s as if we dull our light, justifying that if we allow ourselves to shine brightly, we will somehow outshine another's light.
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And of all things, why the heck do I allow others’ judgements to determine how I show up in the world? I am ardent about manifesting and creating a life I desire, and having nice things is part of my desire. I love having nice things. I love earning nice things, I love allowing nice things into my life, without justification to anyone!
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I had found myself spiraling back to my old limiting beliefs; but today, I am choosing to rise above that and celebrate my own dreams and desires that were put in my heart to realize! I am celebrating my own allowing of incredible things into my life! And I want you to realize that the desires and dreams you have in your heart matter. So, do not allow your limiting beliefs allow you to think you are not worthy.
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I assure you, you are worthy of everything you desire!
